Paying the Price

It's been a while since I last stat here and just communicated our life. At 43 and not admitting that middle age is coming on ,I've been dealing with stress associated with that very thing,..age. What brings on stress? and how do we deal with it. Often in early mornings I find myself worrying or stressing out on nothing. I'll explain. The last few weeks have been really busy with barn cleaning and moving birds from grower barns to breeder barns. With the approaching laying season and preparing the barn for the start of the season is often stressful. Who will work and will I get everything done on time. We have been blessed with workers eager to work and Darren's barn cleaning has gone very well. We now are ready for egg production. Labour force is in place and healthy birds in the barns. Christmas is coming and I love my family dearly. Gaylene's mother is doing well and my family is healthy. I love living in the life of a daughter dating, a son in drivers ed and a son who loves to play hockey. Coaching hockey is getting better and better and even starting to connect with some kids on the team. So why is my heart rate elevated so much in the early hours of each day stressed out about......what?
Today I went to Winnipeg and had the chance to take Aaryn and her friends Erin and Caitlyn shopping. No I did not shop with them, but left them in the mall as I went about my business. But what a blessing and encouragement to listen in to their conversations about their lives. I'm often amazed at how these girls get along and how free Aaryn is with her faith. I pray for her and her friends daily. I enjoy listening to Grad planning and University plans. What kind of a dress will she buy? Then I go on to Adison. Who is he and why is he here. What does God have in store for him? Adison has a real heart for people, and he really enjoys his younger brother. Sometimes it bothers me that he does'nt play hockey and I need to remind myself that a person is not who he is because of hockey. He is who he is because of how God made him. What can I say about Jayms. How much can he still show me in his determination and desire to be the best he can be in everything he does. He loves his friends, and his hockey friends. I feel for him about his size. Reminds me of when I was in school, but he has so much more going for him. He is very outgoing and nothing like me, in that way. So why the stress? Is it because of the fear of something that might happen? Maybe. It is my prayer and this is the reason I'm getting this down, that I take the time to feel the needs of others who have way more challenges right now, then what I may have now. I feel for my friends who go through difficult times. I don't have to go back very long for this. For friends with personal issues and struggles they go through. We need to accept peoples' short comings. So often I see only the outside appearance of people.
Wow, I started with nothing on my mind and now I'm blabbing on. I'm I the only one who can't write fast enough for my thoughts and end up being a bit quirky (is that a word). Paying the Price. What does that mean? In hockey I tell my players that winning never comes unless they pay the price. What about life? Do I pay the price? Do I care enough for my peers? Is God trying to show me by the stress I live with, that I need to take more time for others?